i used to be baffled by Twitter
why would i want to follow the lives of famous people?
more than likely it was my desire to belong which lead me to sign up
and after that Twitter Facebook Blogger Tumblr Wordpress Linkedin Instagram
before all of that a computer was in the front room and that is where it stayed Laptop’s were shared between siblings Nokia’s were used for distraction - games
and a BBM was sent via Blackberry i remember when the computer suite was opened
in school with much publicity
now it’s a given
there will be computers in every classroom
i would take long walks as a teenager i was solitary after a school day ended i needed to clear my head
i was out for hours rain or shine
i liked the way my muscles would ache – i felt that I was growing stronger
i have mental health problems
perhaps social media pushed open that door further
i never used to doubt myself so much
the anxiety festering
what am i missing
who am i not comparing myself with
brought in from the outside world to the one with optical illusions
easily led by the wrong influences i have withered, and wilted
my soul has died a little in blackouts, vodka, and violence
allowed myself to be the puppet
had the imperious curse cast on me
and what i need now is the time and space to clear my head and grow
your concerns were not mine
i didn’t want them
i never did.

Katie writes with her particular brand of poetic insights, based loosely on the subjects of belonging, loss, mental illness, and hope. You can read more snippets of her writing on her Patreon, or in her books available on Amazon.com. Katie also runs a book blog, where she reviews small press books, and interviews writers. Follow her on Twitter and Instagram.
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