was idolatry — pretending to be
dependent, idle twirling womanchild,
chaînés to wolves, wizards. A pretty please,
diseased, undressed, digested & defiled,
a bleeding smile, sutures, eyelashes match
the Mary Magdalene chiffon bequest
unbuttoned lace Lolita dress, years stashed
pink tissue paper, cedar chest — no guess
at size because you redesigned me small
to dance — romance, happenstance removed.
i wait until your exit, let them fall —
dress, vestiges of you but black pointe shoes—
the trappings of a life I lived as doll.
I dance in nothing, night, and I am all.
Note from the author: I’m working on a new book A Victorian Dollhousing Ceremony that is about a dancer who is dollhoused, shrunken by a wizard and kept in a dollhouse a captive. It’s a collaborative chapbook involving two of my very good friends who write poems as the two other characters in the book. Justin Karcher is the wizard, and Tianna Hansen is a frenemy ballerina who sells me to him to make me small and remove me as competition.
Kristin Garth is a Pushcart & Best of the nominated poet from Pensacola and a sonnet stalker. Her sonnets have stalked magazines like Five: 2: One, Yes, Glass, Former Cactus, Occulum, Drunk Monkeys, Luna Luna, TERSE. Journal and many more. Her chapbook Pink Plastic House is available from Maverick Duck Press, and she has another Pensacola Girls from Bone & Ink Press. She has two forthcoming: Shakespeare for Sociopaths (The Hedgehog Poetry Press Jan 2019) and Puritan U (Rhythm & Bones Press March 2019). She also has a full length upcoming Candy Cigarette from Hedgehog Poetry in April. Follow her on Twitter: (@lolaandjolie), her weekly poetry column The Sonnetarium and her website (kristingarth.com).