1 The lowest lows were just so low and none of the happy parts come close to their opposite.
2 It is not an option anyone undertakes lightly I wish I hadn’t wished it was.
3 Twice in Summer, once in Spring: the sunshine made me feel alone.
4 When I was at my lowest I made a perfect fourth plan: I was going to chain myself in a nighttime low tide as close as I could to the water
then I would overdose like the other times but when I passed out I would drown.
real men die
Men are meant to slash their wrists like Romans
Men are meant to tear their stomachs like Samurai
Men are meant to find a gun like an American And ruin as many people as they can.
It is women who put their heads in ovens
It is women who take too many pills It is women who attempt suicide Real men
Get it right: They make a mess
Real men Stop the trains for an hour
Real men Take other people too
Real men Leave their bodies hanging
In a house their family
Real men Don’t swallow legal medicine
Wash it down with pinot grigio
Lie in bed And hope they never wake up.
Real men do it properly Real men don’t mess about
Because if they do it wrong
Someone Will make them talk about
Scott Manley Hadley blogs at TriumphoftheNow.com and his debut poetry collection, Bad Boy Poet, is available now from Open Pen. For more details visit www.scottmanleyhadley.com or @Scott_Hadley on Twitter. His upcoming non-fiction book My Father, From A Distance will be available this March from Selcouth Station!