.....who saw me as their stepmom"
fire truck. helicopter. american girl doll. army men. shopping cart. all these things that were once marinated in you, germed up by you, now lonely in my storage house. doll clothes. mainstreet. silly putty. plastic food. playing cards. i touch each toy i come across, hoping it maintains some essence of you but it never does. board games. teddy bear. ball pit. barber shop. each new item brings out scores of memories and i don't know how to do this. sonic doll. trumpet. barbie. bowling pins. polly pocket. action figures. oh lord hasbro give me strength before i break down in this dusty mess. legos. giant boat. books. winnie the pooh playset. train. i will love you forever and even after that. play-doh. cash register. fake scissors. fingerpaints. ironman shield.
Rachel Tanner is a queer, disabled writer from Alabama whose work has recently appeared or is forthcoming in Memoir Mixtapes, Saw Palm, Bandit Fiction, and elsewhere. Her chapbook, Heal My Way Home, is available from Nightingale and Sparrow Press. She writes a video game poetry/prose column for Videodame and she tweets @rickit.